You ok?

Are you ok? You haven't post anything up.

I love you😜❤️
I miss you!

I miss you❤️😜

I love you❤️😜❤️

no podía conseguir mi coche

no podía conseguir mi coche fuera de la nieve. es atrapado. Tuve que tomar el servicio de coche aquí y la espalda. Espero que pueda conseguir que el día de mañana.


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sin niño bonito

mi mejor amigo me dijo no recoger el niño bonito. mi primer novio era un niño bonito. muy mala elección. ella no lo podía soportar. Más tarde me enteré de que era el mayor imbécil. él me usó a lo grande. él pensó que era una mierda caliente. cuando deje de hablar con él. que me llamaría y me amenaza en el trabajo y en casa. cuando hizo esas amenazas, le dije que yo sé. él se detuvo. él era un chico blanco en una pandilla asiática. él era más asiático entonces yo estaba. él quería una niña asiática. Soy asiático desde el exterior, pero no en el interior. Yo no veo como una chica típica asiáticos tampoco. ella me dijo que no encontrar a alguien como él. No quiero que algunos de los que quiere lo que tengo. Quiero un poco de que estará allí cuando llamo en cualquier momento. Quiero a alguien que quiere lo que soy por dentro.

Could we talk in person?

could we talk in person?

Ignore

I'm going to try to ignore people if they get me upset. Is that better. 😝 how do you deal with people when they are nasty. How do you stay so calm? Yesterday when that lady put her finger to my face. I was piss. She was judging me cause she didn't think I was going to curse her out. You are really calm. Do you ever flip out?


Love u 😜😘

Becareful outside

Becareful outside there's black ice on the ground. It's also raining. 

Happy

I'm happy I met you!
I'm happy I fell in love with you!
You are in my dreams!
Don't feel bad you ignore my msg!
I know you care!
I wish you were here!
Love you!😍
Sweet dreams!




I'm trying to be postive here! 😜

I'm not giving up😜

I'm not giving up on him! I text him everyday. how I feel. I'm not mad or angry. I get mad or angry at people. I forgive really easy. I don't stay mad for that long. I always been like that since I was young. Except the people who talks about me. I don't care for them. We are not talking right now. Actually he is not talking to me. We work this out. I still love him. I know he still love me. 😜❤️When it happens it happens. When I see him im going to 😜 do that.


I know its him! I love you I don't hate you😜😘
Why can he just talk to me face to face. 😝

I don't want him to think I'm annoying

should I stop sending him text and calling him. I don't want him to think I'm annoying. He hasn't reply since jan 3. I don't know what to do. Should I continue? Or should I stop? If I stop noe he probably going to think. I don't care. Shrug I don't know what to do. I can't belive I'm in this mess.

I'm really tired

I'm really tired today. I was up at 6 am. I had to make the little kid breakfast. Take him to school. I had to run errands. Then go to work. I was having a ok day today. until my brother show up. Telling me what to do. Why is he telling me what to do. He just piss me off at night. Why does he have to show up. Then he told me to drop him off first. Before I pick up the little one. I told him the little needs to be pick up and put to bed. We get back to the house and he telling me what to do again. The little one told him off. Omg I was shock. The little one told him to mind his own business. I'm more responsible then him. Stop telling her what to do. My brother shut up after that. He should worry about his life not mine. I know what to do with my life. I'm tired!

I can't belive this is happening to me.

I can't believe this is happening to me. I hope it's not true. I won't get any answers yet. I need to find out. What are they planning to do. Ok I assume again with him. He ran last time. What am i supposed to think. He saw me on Friday. He had this look. I been texting him. He stay quiet. He wants me to suffer his pain. I am suffering. I told him I want him in my life. I did say other things to but it wasn't bad. He doesn't say anything. I hurt him. I told him I was jealous. I reacted the wrong way. I never meant to hurt him. I should of rely on my instinct that day. I told him I regret not telling that day.  He is breaking my heart. 💔 I been texting him. He never ask me to stop. he is reading the msg. Why is this happening to me now? If a guy ran from you. What would you think? I'm around now I get to bump into him. What if I'm not around anymore. I won't be able to see him. I am freaking out. I text him so many times. He stay quiet. I never meant to hurt him. He is breaking my heart by ignoring me!   💔💔💔

I didn't do much tonight.

My gay friend took me out to dinner tonight. He ask what's wrong? I didn't say anything. He knew something was wrong. I didn't need to tell him. He said when I need someone to talk to. He be there for me. He knew cause I wasn't eating much. He reminded me aren't I going to take a picture. He is a good friend I'm going to miss him.He's getting transfer to another country for work. he ask me if I want to be his assistant. I told him no I wouldn't want to work for him. He's to bossy! He kept bugging me to go gay clubbing. I told him he really wants me to blind. I don't need to see that. I went home after that.


I know I doubt you! I took you for granted! I was jealous! I want you! I know you still want me! I know you still love me! I love you to! I want to hold you tight and not let you go! You were perfect in my arms! ❤️😊

I know now you are not marry. 😜You wanted to see what would my reaction be.I had a bad reaction. Now you're really quiet cause I hurt you. You are reading my msg. 😜 I'm the bee and I stung you bad! I want to take the stinger out! Can I? 💋

Omg

I went to get food at the Chinese restaurant I didn't eat all day. I bump into him. I was shock. He probably thought I follow him. No I didnt. I wanted to tell him. I love him there. He wouldn't let me get the chance to tell him. He told me we can't see each other cause he is marry. I text him I don't believe he is marry. cause he was testing me me how I feel about him. I shouldn't have doubt him. I got jealous. That was my reaction. I should of have known he was testing me. I told him I did take him for granted. I play with his feelings. He knows I'm hurting inside. He wants me to hurt. Like he did. He could hurt me. I won't stop loving him. When he said he was marry. He didn't even look me in the face. When he said it. He said something he couldn't  talk cause his wife is around. He has a smirk on his face. It's been going over in my head from that that day. When I ask those questions he was hurting. I shouldn't have doubt his love. He could hurt me I'm not giving up. I'm not going to stop loving him. He wants me to pay the price for hurting him. I am paying it. I'm hurting. I am happy I did see him.😊 I know why he doesn't want to start a relationship yet. I hurt him. I broke his heart. I have to let go my past before I start anything. I will move forward. I know he broke rules with me. I really regret for not telling him that day.
He put a smile on my face today. I haven't smile.
No matter how much I'm hurting. I will still love you.
I am happy I saw him.  You put a smile on my face.
I'm not giving up!
I care!
I miss him!
I love him!
He is special in my heart. ❤️

Nasty chinese food!

quiero estar con él

Me doy cuenta de la víspera de Año Nuevo. Quería estar con él. es por eso que fui allí el día de Año Nuevo. Quería estar con él. Yo no le dije que lo amo. Le dije que me gusta. Yo de él debería dije que lo amo. Fui allí anoche. No pude contener las lágrimas cuando estaba trabajando. Quería decirle en persona. Me dirigí a su casa anoche. que nunca llegó a la puerta. nunca recoger. él me debe odiar tanto. Yo estaba de pie allí durante 40 minutos bajo cero. él me odia tanto. que no le importaba si yo congelo a la muerte.Yo no voy a renunciar. Lo amo con todo mi corazón.él realmente me odia.

Fui allí para decirle que lo amo

Fui allí para decirle que lo amo!Yo lo llamo y le texto. nunca abrir o recoger su teléfono. Yo estaba fuera de 40 minutos. Realmente lamento que no se lo dije. Le dije que en un texto por qué no se lo dije. Espero que se entienda. Me odio a mí misma por no decirle. Me rompió hoy y la gente vio que estaba llorando. Yo no podía sostenerla en más tiempo. No soy fuerte. Estoy débil. Yo lo quiero mucho.Lo siento, lo lastimé.Me encanta. Yo no voy a renunciar.

Estoy listo para seguir adelante

Estoy listo para seguir adelante.él no quiere cambiar. eligió a su familia primero y luego yo. él no quiere hablar. que creo que es un matrimonio normal. que no es !!! Me caí de amor por él más de 2 años. que no es la misma de antes. cuando hago verlo. no nos tomamos de las manos. cuando hago abrazarlo. que no es lo mismo. no hay chispa. no hay nada allí. hay un montón de cosas. Quiero que los niños. a mí me parece que no le importa. He notar ciertas cosas que no son compatibles. Soy una chica de la ciudad. Yo no soy una chica suburbio. Yo no lo puedo decir ahora. es el comienzo del nuevo año. Voy a esperar. si lo hago ahora que estoy siendo una perra. No puedo decir que me enamoré de alguien más. No quiero hacerle daño. Me importa porque él ha estado ahí para mí. Le parece que somos más como amigos de los. marido y mujer. ambos no probamos. él realmente no intentó en absoluto. Hago mi mejor hasta que me caí de amor. sí me suena como una perra mal. pero yo no lo soy. No he sido feliz.Quiero que los niños y no me estoy volviendo más joven. si sigo arrastrando. No voy a tener ninguna.Yo voy a ser miserable si me quedo.


No quiero perder el chico que me enamoré. Yo sé que él tiene sentimientos a. se esconde ella. Entiendo por qué iba a ocultarlo. probablemente él no quiere salir herido .i siempre tienen un muro. lo compró abajo. me duele el corazón de nuevo. el amor duele Quiero esconderme en mi concha.Confío en que la gente sencilla.Espero que no me juzga.¿por qué está empujando me fuera?Qué tengo que hacer? Voy a intentarlo de nuevo

Voy a llamarlo esta noche

Voy a llamarlo esta noche para ver si él es free.I'm de pensar en él. Le extraño. Tengo miedo. Tengo que tomar un riesgo si no lo hago. No lo sabré. Espero que no se moleste. Yo le estoy llamando tan tarde.

insultado

Me siento insultado él pensaría que tengo un novio. por qué iba a pensar eso. ¿es porque yo no le dije cómo me siento por él al principio. cuando me gusta alguien que no me gusta que nadie. ¿Realmente creo que por eso yo lo estaba ignorando al principio. él pensaba que yo estaba saliendo con alguien. Yo no lo llamo porque pensé que estaba con alguien y que ignore mi texto. Yo de él debería dicho en el principio lo que realmente siento por él. a finales ahora tiene otra persona. hice decirle ayer le gusta mucho. Todavía estoy Choque Está casado!


Todavía voy a llamar. pero espero que no se meta en problemas.

Yo no voy a renunciar a él! Utilizo a ser muy persistentes cuando era más joven. Quería algo que le fastidiaría mis amigos hasta que conseguí lo que quería. cuando mi mamá pasa me di por vencido en las cosas. No soy persistente más. Me di por vencido en las cosas. Yo no voy a renunciar a él. Si él cree estar tranquilo que va a hacer que me detengo. Yo no voy a distancia tan fácilmente. 😜 😝

Todavía estoy pensando ¿debo aparecer. estoy loco para pensar en ello. voy a ser decepcionado. debo texto él primero para hacerle saber. omfg No sé qué hacer.¿qué iba a hacer. tendrá que abrir la puerta.