Life

Life sucks these days. I'm not happy with my life right now. So much things have been going on. I hate my job!! My marriage is falling apart. My sibling is doing drugs!! When my mom passed away everything felled apart. She was the life line to this family! My husband doesn't know how I feel these days he think nothing is wrong!!! I hardly see him cause he works in another state. I'm in another state. I want to start a family. Have kids at least 2. But that didn't happen yet. I told my husband when I do I would like to be a stay home mom. He argues that I should go to work. I'm trying to tell him the best part is to see your kids grow up. I don't want to miss any of that. I have a cowoker she cries cause her babysitter tells her on the phone her son is walking. She said she miss a lot of things. I don't wanna be her. It's sad when your babysitter see your kid grow up. Since I don't see my husband a lot. I met someone I am attracted to. Smh. Does marriage fall apart when u work in another state? Does marriage fall apart when you always arguing? We are not getting along these days when we do see other. I told my husband if we don't fix this problem I'm going to cheat it was meant as a joke. I wasn't attract to this person yet. Now this guy is avoided me cause he knows I'm married. I'm so stress out with all these problems. I was having health issues begin of the year. To many problems to fix. I want to cry but I have no tears!!