Mad

i'm going mad, i told myself. let me not be mad. By Ian McEwan When you get mad, it's the time you lose Hiroko Sakai I was mad at you cause you diss me! Now I'm not cause I don't stay mad for that long! I don't know why you mad? What have I done to you? Is it because I'm marry? I know you still mad? Thanks for dissing me again!! I'm always the sucker!!

Family sucks

U can't choose your family but u could choose your friends. I can't stand certain family member. They only think about money!

Smile

I have to keep a fake smile. Why? I work with people and clients. I try to keep a smile on my face. My co worker today said I look really mean today cause I do t smile. He told me u get wrinkles if u don't smile. I'm so unhappy I'm not paying attention what I'm doing at work. I have to many things on my mind. I need to vent cause sometimes you can't tell people everything. They will used it against you. I tell my best friend everything. She like a sister to me. These days she doesn't have time to talk. She had to work and take care of two kids. The only time I'm happy is when I see my god kids. I have a lot of friends but I can't talk to them like my best friend. I don't have many female friends mostly guy friends.

Life

Life sucks these days. I'm not happy with my life right now. So much things have been going on. I hate my job!! My marriage is falling apart. My sibling is doing drugs!! When my mom passed away everything felled apart. She was the life line to this family! My husband doesn't know how I feel these days he think nothing is wrong!!! I hardly see him cause he works in another state. I'm in another state. I want to start a family. Have kids at least 2. But that didn't happen yet. I told my husband when I do I would like to be a stay home mom. He argues that I should go to work. I'm trying to tell him the best part is to see your kids grow up. I don't want to miss any of that. I have a cowoker she cries cause her babysitter tells her on the phone her son is walking. She said she miss a lot of things. I don't wanna be her. It's sad when your babysitter see your kid grow up. Since I don't see my husband a lot. I met someone I am attracted to. Smh. Does marriage fall apart when u work in another state? Does marriage fall apart when you always arguing? We are not getting along these days when we do see other. I told my husband if we don't fix this problem I'm going to cheat it was meant as a joke. I wasn't attract to this person yet. Now this guy is avoided me cause he knows I'm married. I'm so stress out with all these problems. I was having health issues begin of the year. To many problems to fix. I want to cry but I have no tears!!

Marriage

My marriage is not working. When we do see other we are arguing about stupid little things. You know I haven't been happy for over a year now! When I tell you we got to talk. You tell me I'm ruining our day together. You do stupids things to get me pissed off. I don't know why? You work far away! You don't listen. To busy playing video games. Never think about the future!

I'm not happy

I'm not happy how things turn out.i hope we still could be friends!

Another day

Why do people try to convert you when you don't believe in there religion. I have a family member she been trying to drag me to church. She knows I'm a Buddhist. I don't want to convert unless I want to. I have a coworker she tells me my religion is garbage. Smh If I said that to her.she drag me to hr. you believe in what you want. Not what people want you to believe in.

Confused

I'm so confused! I just want to scream!!! I'm not mad! Just confused.

Life

When you get older u have more problems. I wish I was a kid again so I don't have to worry about so much things. My friends tell me i worry to much that's why I'm getting panic attacks. I can't seem let things go. Since my mom passed away I get really mad real fast. I have friends tell me I need to take a anger management class to calm down.

Should I ?

Should I text you? The last time I spoke to you. You were mad! If I text you would u reply back! If you don't then I feel really stupid for texting you! Why haven't u text or call?

Should I or not!!

Should I call! Should I text! If I do will u answer! I am so confused! What do I do?