I have to place my own order!

It was nice my friend came by today. She has notice something is wrong . She ordered dinner for me. That was nice of her. The big problem is the restaurant she order from put something I'm allergic to. I try to scrape it off. That didn't help much cause I had to rush home for my medication. Things were getting swollen and I'm breaking out of hives. Wonderful this is how my night is going to end. I hope the medication is going to work faster cause if it doesn't Im going to drive myself to the emergency room. I should of listen to her and not have ate it. Next time I'm going to go with her to place my order cause I hate when I break out of hives. If the hives doesn't go away and the swollen. I'm not leaving the house tomorrow at all until it goes away!

Doctor yelled at me today! I'm not doing the things he been telling me to do!

I'm so upset with myself.

I'm so upset with myself. Why? Cause I couldn't hide my feelings from him. I can't stop thinking about him. Why can I stop calling him. I was asking for it. I need to runaway. I'm upsetting myself. I'm not sleeping cause I'm thinking about what did I do for him to be mad. Since im not sleeping i didnt go to work monday morning. I know he's mad. What could it be?

I'm going to stop calling him for now until he gets over whatever he's mad about.

los sentimientos que tengo para él puede que sólo va a desaparecer!

I can't believe I'm having so much problems.

Why me? Why am I'm having so much problems with men. I care about my husband but its not the same anymore. We don't talk anymore. All we do is argue. When we are not arguing. He does his own thing and I do my own thing. When we do see each other and sit to have dinner. We are not talking at all. We are playing with our phones. It's been on going problems. He always ignoring the problems we have. To me the relationship has been going down hill since we got married. It's not working!!! I have feelings for someone else. I thought maybe I was only attractive to him and my mind was just playing games since I don't see my husband. I try to forget him and stop calling him cause he ignore last year. That really didn't work. The feelings are still there. I can't just make it go away. What am I going to do now? I'm stuck with this problems. I really don't know what to do. I can't tell anyone about this guy. I can't ask anyone not even my friends for opinion. I'm stuck in the hole by myself.

Freaked out

I wanted to watch my walking dead show. I usually watch it during the day. I do not watch it at night. I like horror I cant watch it at night cause I get really freak out and I end up not going to sleep. I was so stupid to turn it on last night. I was so freak out last night I only got 2 hrs. I had to sleep with the light on. I'm at work now and I'm so tired. I need lots of coffee. Thank goodness mr creepy old man is not here! But I have the pervert drunk here! Still freaked out from last night. I get home and they have a ghost movie on omg!

Apartments

I saw one apartment this morning. Its not in a good neighborhood. It cost 1300 dollars that's alot of money for a studio. After work I went to see another apartment but its a coop the apartment cost 150,000 plus a monthly 750. It's really small. It not near the train. I would have to take a bus to the train. That's a pain in the ass. I probably be late for work everyday if I got to commute like that. I need someone who could read the Chinese newspaper to look for a apartment for me. It's cheaper if you rent from Asians people. It's a little cheaper. I just need my own place. I'm still searching.

Vacation all mess up

My friends were calling me up all day long at work and told me the place we rent is all booked up for the summer. I told them to book early. They never listen. If you ask the girls to do they always get it right.The girls are piss off at the guys cause they didn't listen. The only dates are in the winter. Im not going in the winter time its to cold in the winter. I'm planning not going at all. When I plan things everything goes wrong!!! I knew this will happen. I can't put anymore money I don't have that much money to waste like my friends. I have a crappy job. I don't get paid alot. They have good job and get paid alot. They mention they will chip in for me. I rather not let them chip in. It's better i don't go at all.

My friends are calling me way to early today about the vacation. I already told them I'm not going. I'm not picking up cause I'm annoyed how everything is mess up.

Very annoyed

This morning started out really crappy. By the time I got to work. My jean and sneaker was soaked from the rain. I really didn't want to get up for work. I was thinking about calling out. I can't stand my  job. My coworkers was annoying me all day long until I got out of work. My Monday always start out really bad. Tomorrow is another day.  I'm annoyed about the problems I have!!!

The bad part is I can't escape from my problems. That mean I can't go on vacation somebody screw it up!!