Bad mood

My friends piss me off last night. They told me to meet them at 8 pm. I got there 820 they still weren't there. I call them up and they said they running late. They got there at 845. I told them I'm leaving I'm tired and I'm not in a good mood! They really piss me of yesterday.They told me they booked a vacation trip and its going to cost me over 1 grand. They didnt even ask me. I get home I can't go to sleep cause the lady is talking on top of her lungs on the phone. I couldn't fall a sleep! I end up taking a walk at 230am OMG. I have work the next day. I get to work there's problems. This job is going to make me drink. I need a day off from everyone family and friends. I wish I could pick up and runaway.

I'm still curious what was he mad about? Is he still mad? Should I just give up?

I just got home

What a long day. I just got home. A friend ask me to come over to have dinner with her family. I'm so tired while I was working. I wanted to take a nap. People said im a grouch today. Why cause i didn't  t get enough sleep. I couldn't wait to get home and take a shower. I hate this weather.  Now I'm home and Im not tired.. I got to be at work in the morning. I hope I don't have to deal with creppy old man tomorrow. I'm going have to curse him out soon!

I'm annoyed

I'm annoyed with everything and everyone. Nothing is going right. I need to get away from everyone!

I can't believe it

Today I found out one of my coworkers got let go today. I can't believe it. She was ok but I could hear it in her voice she was kind of upset. My stupid supervisor set her up. I know they don't like her so when she made a mistake. They used that to fired her. People make mistakes no one is perfect in this world. They made alot of mistake and they don't admit it. While I was talking to her she said to me I wanted to get fired but she got fired instead. I still can't believe these bitches will do something like that. I really can't believe it. Human resources never help the workers they only there to help the company. If anything happens go to department of labor. I can't never trust anyone at work. They will  stab you in the back when you are not looking.

I woke up late for work!

I woke up late for work this morning cause I got home late last night. I'm really late for work today. I jump out of bed didn't even take a shower.  When I get here guess who here? Mr creepy man crap that's how my day is going to start. He wanted to help me I told him no thanks. He bitching right now about talking to himself about how he always offer and I don't accept the offer. He creeps me out,I rather break my back then ask him for help. He was complaining I was late. If I'm late why does he wait an hour. Pls leave then. I'm really holding my tongue. He will get curse out soon. I don't have nice words to say about this creepy guy. I'm leaving soon. When he here I'm always leave.

What else is going to happen today! How is my day going to end?

Jamaica Vacation

My Jamaica vacation is mess up to. It seem all my vacation plan is getting mess up when I plan it. Will I  be able to go anywhere. It seems things happen for a reason. I might have to not plan it and just pick up and go. I need to get away by myself.

I didn't have anything plan last tonight. I was surpposed to go to a birthday dinner. I didn't wanna go. I end up going to my friend place they were play mah Jong. I wasn't in the mood to play. If I did I would of had lost money. I have free time now but I don't want to waste it. I try to make time  for someone   and that person  ignores me. That's how i get treated by being nice.

Tonight

Lucky I woke up some of the hives went away on my face. I had to double dose last night.  If it didn't i am not leaving the house at all only to the doctor office.I can't believe it happen again. I'm still itching from the hives on my leg. It sucks when you are allergic to things. I was going to go out tonight to a birthday party decide not to. It's going to cost me. I don't have much money these days to waste. I have a crappy job not making any money. Some of my friends don't care about money they waste it like water. The guys always offer to pay. I don't really like that. They know i dont make the money i used to make.Since my vacation got all mess up. I stil need to save to go somewhere. My friends were texting me all night for me to come. I told the bday girl I take her out another day. One of my friend call me to go visit her in North Carolina. Maybe I take a drive down by myself down there i just to need to get away for a couple of days.

I have another bday party to go to tomorrow. I'm not going to go. Hmm what am I going to do tomorrow night! 

I been looking for a new job but its out of the state. It's so hard to find a job.

So glad I got my car back from the shop. Damn this car is costing me alot of money. 

I have to place my own order!

It was nice my friend came by today. She has notice something is wrong . She ordered dinner for me. That was nice of her. The big problem is the restaurant she order from put something I'm allergic to. I try to scrape it off. That didn't help much cause I had to rush home for my medication. Things were getting swollen and I'm breaking out of hives. Wonderful this is how my night is going to end. I hope the medication is going to work faster cause if it doesn't Im going to drive myself to the emergency room. I should of listen to her and not have ate it. Next time I'm going to go with her to place my order cause I hate when I break out of hives. If the hives doesn't go away and the swollen. I'm not leaving the house tomorrow at all until it goes away!

Doctor yelled at me today! I'm not doing the things he been telling me to do!

I'm so upset with myself.

I'm so upset with myself. Why? Cause I couldn't hide my feelings from him. I can't stop thinking about him. Why can I stop calling him. I was asking for it. I need to runaway. I'm upsetting myself. I'm not sleeping cause I'm thinking about what did I do for him to be mad. Since im not sleeping i didnt go to work monday morning. I know he's mad. What could it be?

I'm going to stop calling him for now until he gets over whatever he's mad about.

los sentimientos que tengo para él puede que sólo va a desaparecer!

I can't believe I'm having so much problems.

Why me? Why am I'm having so much problems with men. I care about my husband but its not the same anymore. We don't talk anymore. All we do is argue. When we are not arguing. He does his own thing and I do my own thing. When we do see each other and sit to have dinner. We are not talking at all. We are playing with our phones. It's been on going problems. He always ignoring the problems we have. To me the relationship has been going down hill since we got married. It's not working!!! I have feelings for someone else. I thought maybe I was only attractive to him and my mind was just playing games since I don't see my husband. I try to forget him and stop calling him cause he ignore last year. That really didn't work. The feelings are still there. I can't just make it go away. What am I going to do now? I'm stuck with this problems. I really don't know what to do. I can't tell anyone about this guy. I can't ask anyone not even my friends for opinion. I'm stuck in the hole by myself.

Freaked out

I wanted to watch my walking dead show. I usually watch it during the day. I do not watch it at night. I like horror I cant watch it at night cause I get really freak out and I end up not going to sleep. I was so stupid to turn it on last night. I was so freak out last night I only got 2 hrs. I had to sleep with the light on. I'm at work now and I'm so tired. I need lots of coffee. Thank goodness mr creepy old man is not here! But I have the pervert drunk here! Still freaked out from last night. I get home and they have a ghost movie on omg!

Apartments

I saw one apartment this morning. Its not in a good neighborhood. It cost 1300 dollars that's alot of money for a studio. After work I went to see another apartment but its a coop the apartment cost 150,000 plus a monthly 750. It's really small. It not near the train. I would have to take a bus to the train. That's a pain in the ass. I probably be late for work everyday if I got to commute like that. I need someone who could read the Chinese newspaper to look for a apartment for me. It's cheaper if you rent from Asians people. It's a little cheaper. I just need my own place. I'm still searching.

Vacation all mess up

My friends were calling me up all day long at work and told me the place we rent is all booked up for the summer. I told them to book early. They never listen. If you ask the girls to do they always get it right.The girls are piss off at the guys cause they didn't listen. The only dates are in the winter. Im not going in the winter time its to cold in the winter. I'm planning not going at all. When I plan things everything goes wrong!!! I knew this will happen. I can't put anymore money I don't have that much money to waste like my friends. I have a crappy job. I don't get paid alot. They have good job and get paid alot. They mention they will chip in for me. I rather not let them chip in. It's better i don't go at all.

My friends are calling me way to early today about the vacation. I already told them I'm not going. I'm not picking up cause I'm annoyed how everything is mess up.

Very annoyed

This morning started out really crappy. By the time I got to work. My jean and sneaker was soaked from the rain. I really didn't want to get up for work. I was thinking about calling out. I can't stand my  job. My coworkers was annoying me all day long until I got out of work. My Monday always start out really bad. Tomorrow is another day.  I'm annoyed about the problems I have!!!

The bad part is I can't escape from my problems. That mean I can't go on vacation somebody screw it up!!

I'm finally home

What a day today! I didn't get enough sleep today. I almost fell a sleep on the chair at work and almost fell off. That wouldn't have been funny. There's was a arguing fight this morning between customer. I jam my freaking finger in the door and I didn't know until i felt the pain. Now my finger is black and blue.I'm really clumsy when I'm tired.I couldn't wait to go home today but the time was going so slow. I'm home now and I can't go to sleep cause I have guests in the house.



Ok I'm going to try to call him.

Vacation

I'm going on vacation sooner then I expected. I don't know where to go yet. Maybe I go a road trip with the girls. Its going have to be a short vacation. I already book my vacation in July already. I hope nothing goes wrong. Everything always goes wrong when I plan ahead. I need to runaway from all my problems. I can't fix anything so I'm running away from it.

I can't fall a sleep again.

I'm really tired and I can't fall a sleep. It's past midnight I should be sleeping. I got to be up early tomorrow. I have a sleeping problem. If I go to sleep early I be up in a couple hrs. When I don't need to. When I do need to go to sleep I can't. If I don't fall a sleep I'm going to snack on junk food. That's not good. I need a lot of coffee tomorrow if I don't get any sleep.

I know my rights

I know my labor laws. The bitches at my job are messing with me today. She wasn't born here,if you going to be a supervisor learn the damn labor laws. They giving me a lot of problems right now!

I can't fall a sleep!

I can't fall a sleep. Is it my new allergy medicine making me not able to sleep. I need to go to sleep I got to be up soon for work. This really sucks. If I don't take it. I'm suffering, if I do I can't sleep. Wtf do I do. If I don't get any sleep I'm going to have a nasty attitude. I over did my workout today and I'm in a lot of pain. Tonight is not a goodnight. Can't sleep and I'm in pain all over.

I'm really tired today. I only got 2 hrs sleep. I can't call out of work.

Penny's is money!!

I got out early tonight. I went to do my errands got most of it done. I'm exhaust driving around in the city. I got more errands to do tomorrow morning. I stop to get a bottle water today at a deli. I saw this lady with her child. She wanted to buy a gallon milk. All she had on her was penny's the guy at the deli wouldn't take it from her. Why? To lazy to count penny's. It is money but in coins. I felt bad for her so I pay what I had left over with my change. She was so surprised. The guy behind the counter was surprised too. Some people are in hard times and all they have is coins. Sometimes they don't have enough to pay for things for there kids. I felt bad cause the little girl was 4 years and and it was getting late and she was telling her mom she wanted milk. It's a good deed if the person really needs it. Penny's is still money!!

Very tired today

It was a crazy day today. I was drowsy from the meds I'm taking I had to keep moving around or I'm going to fall a sleep. The medicine is hurting my stomach. The side effect is weight gain. I can't wait till I'm off this crap. I couldn't even take a damn nap today cause its was chaotic at work. I didn't get home till late and I can't fall a sleep in this house. I'm going to be really cranky at work tomorrow.