Best friend

I have a best friend. We been friend since high school. She been there for me and I been there for her. I usually tell her everything. These days I can't. I told her about this guy I met. She knew before i even knew. She knows me to well. She yelled at me telling me saying I was going through a mid life crisis. She told me to fix my situation I am in. These days I can't tell her anything. She will yell at me if I told her I was thinking about that guy. She will yell if I told her I wanted to call. It sucks I can't talk to her about everything. I can't talk to anyone. I have to tell myself he have or had my number. Don't call or text to see how he doing. Why should I care? That's how I am I care about people. Even if I don't know the person that well.  I'm a really nice person if I want to be. I could be a bitch too.