Rain rain go away

I hate the rain. I was drench coming from the city. I was not having a good day at work. Horrible day a coworker slam the door on my fingers ouch it was by accident I hope. Lucky i didn't break any of them. Then I had to report in to my other job. I had to go check the roof cause it leaks lucky I got there on time to spill all the water out. Clumsy me walking down the stair I almost fell I'm tired. I didn't want to cook so I went to my brother place and order out. I hope the rain going to stop tomorrow. When it pours it pours cats and dogs. My ankles are in pain from the rain. I'm getting old I need bengay.

My stupid coworker

My stupid co worker piss me off. She wasn't doing any of the work and she try to throw me under the bus today. I was ready to beat the shit out of her. She suppose to be my friend. I can't trust anyone at this place

First night I had to cook for myself

Today is the first night I had to cook for myself. It sucks no home cook meal for a while. I'm tired from working and I got to rush home to cook. This sucks I end up burning myself. It's only minor. Don't know what to eat tomorrow for dinner. Maybe i order something out if I'm to tired to cook. Time to relax and watch my shows on Netflix. Tomorrow another day.

You can't not be friends with a coworker!!!

You can not be friends with a coworker if you going to work with that person everyday. Omfg she always trying to pass her work to me. I told her NO she got piss off. It's her job to do the work. I knew I should had call out again.

I got some things done today!

If I didn't call out today. I wouldn't have been able get things done during the weekends. I was able to get some rest to. It's really hard to do so many things when it's a 3 person job. It's only been the first day but I need a vacation already.

To much things to do!

My dad left with me a list of crap to do does he think I'm super girl. I'm only one person. He tells me I'm young so could I do it. You do have others kids. Why rely on me when you constant always bitching at me. Since i have his errands and i got my own things to do I decide I'm not going to go in today. My friends ask me how do I do it. How do I have the strength to do everything. I told her if I don't do it who going to. I also told her make sure I don't pass out inside my work place. I'm tired!!! Will I have time to cook! Nope I won't have time.

Tired and annoyed

I'm tired and annoyed. This morning mr creepy old man came in. He was bothering me. I walk away from him. I had a lot of errands to do today. I got back to work late. It was closing time mr dirty mouth came in. I didn't let him in. Another customer annoyed me cause he forgot what time i closed. The worst part was when I was cleaning up I saw mini mouse running around. Totally freak out. I'm so tired im thinking about playing hooking from work tomorrow.

Worst mother in law

I came back to nj. I knew I shouldn't have come back. My mother in law is bitching about stupid shit. She complains about I have stuff around the house. I don't have anything here. I don't have anything here not even my clothes. The only they I have here is bathroom stuff. She always mumbling about this is her house and I have to listen to her. Yeah right why should I listen to her. She not my mother.  We were supposed to stay for only 1 yr. Some how it ended up almost 4 yrs. Never move in with your in laws. She the worst mother in law.

Monday

Starting Monday I will be doing everything by myself. Working 3jobs. Taking care the family business, my job. I have to cook for myself. I won't have to hear my dad bitching for almost 2 months thank goodness. He always have nothing good to say.
Tonorrow will be the last time i see my husband until my dad gets back.Also I won't see my husband for 2 months. He's not willing to come to NYC. If he does he complains. I will see if he makes a effort.

He knows I like him.
I hope he knows I'm a sensitive person.
Girls have feelings. Don't play with my feelings.
Why me?
I really don't know what to do anymore.

My dad hates my husband!

My dad was bitching the other day about my husband. Why have a wife if you can't take care of her and support. He constantly telling me that we are not going to last. He ask me would my husband go looking for another women?omfg why is he bothering me about this. He doesn't know we are having problems. My dad also said if you don't have a kid with him soon my husband will kick me to the side. Asian family wants you to have kids right away. The more I think about the problems I have I'm going to have a attack. Every time I get home from working he always bitching.  I need to escape from the house.


I want to call him. But I'm afraid he going to avoid me! What should I do?

I hate my job!

I really hate my job. Today is the first day I'm back and they pulling me in the office to sign papers I didn't sign. I told then if you don't like how I work fired me. I don't give a shit anymore. I have to much stress in my life. My job is one of them. I'm losing my hair and I'm losing weight from stress. Im not on a diet anymore and im losing to much weight. I can't sleep at night. im only getting a couple hours of sleep.The stress could kill me if I don't relax. I'm going to have a anxiety attack soon if I don't calm down.  There's to much things on my mind right now. I can't talk to anyone about certain things. 

Suspended or fired

I spoke to my cousin today he said they won't fired me cause I actually work and no one works. They are trying to teach me a lesson not to talk to my superviors that way. She a bitch she derseve it. I don't give a shit anymore. When they suspended me something lift of my chest. If I do get fired. I make sure I'm going to curse out who I hate there!!! Lets see how long am I suspended for. I'm waiting for the call.

Ok I got the damn phone call I'm back at work tomorrow crap I was hoping to get fired!

The more I think about it the more I'm piss.

I'm still thinking about what happen at my job. The more I think about it I'm more piss off. The guys took me out on Friday. They knew I was piss. They said people love to kiss ass to the boss. It's in every company. There always favoritism. they also said race is always a issue in every company. I think it's unfair when you choose a person to listen to and not hear the other person. If I do get fire they would know who works and don't work.

I got suspended today or fire!

I got suspended today maybe fire for talking back to my supervisor.She always pick on me since she became a higher up. She really a stupid bitch. I don't let anyone talk to me like I'm a damn dog. I don't put up with that shit. She been out to get me since day one. Anyway I hate this job. If they don't call me back that's fine. I'm so pissed cause they suspended me for attitude problem. They don't suspend someone for giving the wrong thing to the wrong client. Why she didn't cause she the supervisor friend. That's why I'm so pissed off. I won't know till Monday if I'm fire or not! 

One week

My dad is leaving in one week. I'm going to be working 3 jobs. My job and the family business. I also got to buy grocery for my grandma. Should I take 2 days off next week before he leaves. I hope I don't crash since I got to much things on my plate.

To much noise.

There's to much noise in my dad house. My evil step is back. She making to much noise in the house. I can't stand looking at her. I think she does it on purpose in the middle of the night. She knows I have to be up in he morning for work. Her lazy ass could sleep all freaking day. I really can't stand her.

Doctor

My allergy is killing me these days. I be riding the train to work and passengers think I'm crying on the train. If im sneezing people think I have a cold and they move away. The past weeks I'm breaking out in hives and rash. I hate going to the doctor. I have appointment this week to get my allergy test. The worst part is needles. I don't wanna go but I have to. 

I just got home

What a busy day. I went to pick my god daughter up. She hang out with me while I was working. She  a handful. She doesn't tell you if she hungry or not. I can't read your mind I told her. I got lunch for myself. I ask her if she wanted anything she said no. When I started eating she tell me she wanted fries. I had to go back to the store and other her food. I ask her to sweep the floor she said she doesn't know how to. Omg when I was her age I knew how to do a lot of things. I told her she has to learn how to do things. If you don't learn you will never know. I think kids are really spoil these days.
I just drop her off and I'm back at my father place.. My guys friends call and ask me to hangout. I told them im not going to hangout tonight.  Staying in on a Saturday. 

Facebook

If you have Facebook make sure you use a nick name on it. These days when you're applying for a job. They search to see if you have a Facebook account. They want to know what you write about and what kind of pictures you put on it. I know the company I work for does a Facebook search. I don't use my legal name on Facebook. On my résumé I use my legal name when I'm am applying for a job. People don't find out my English name till later. The worst part is I have to hear them killing my Chinese name. It sounds a lot better in Chinese when you say it.  I heard a story about this mta guy he was on vacation. He join in for the day no pants day. He took a picture of himself and put it on Facebook he got in trouble for that. I do put a lot of stuff up mostly food pictures and I do bitch about my step. I make sure who I share it with cause I have coworkers on my Facebook. The last time I put something up they were complaining that I should have put it up. I told them I could put anything up it wasn't about work. I do need to delete some people.

Thank goodness it's Friday!

This week really suck ass. I was ready to break down at work. I don't like being yelled at by my clients. The clients was treating me like shit. They were cursing and yelling this week. Thank goodness it's Friday. I was planning to go out with friends tonight. They change plans and they wanted to drive all the way to Atlantic city. There's no way I'm driving all the way there and stay out all night to see people gamble. Nothing to do on a Friday night.

I wanted to cry today!

I was having a bad day at work. It was so bad I wanted to cry. I was getting yelled at by many clients today. I wasn't the only one. I had another co worker she couldn't handle the clients. She was very to bust. I hate my job so bad. I hate clients!!! I really don't want to go to work tomorrow.

Very tired

I'm so tired today from work. I was going to go running with my bro but I didn't. My back is killing me today. I think it's from the chair at work. It's making my back hurt even more. It was so busy at work today. I work with lazy people they move like turtles. I think they do it on purpose. It's only Tuesday can it be Friday already. This week is turning into a crappy week already. I hate my job!!!

My boss is a bitch

I'm having a crappy day. My boss is a bitch. I walk in this morning she started yelling like a crazy lady. I think she needs to get laid!!

I'm a mess today!

I woke up late today. Since I was running late I had to leave the house with my hair wet. I was late to work again. My allergies is killing me. One of my eye is swollen it looks like someone punch me in the eye. I forgot my allergy med at home.  I'm a mess today.It's so busy at work I got curse at by the clients today. Mondays are always bad. When I got home I got a letter in the mail telling me if I don't paid for my driver fine from jan my license is going to get suspended wonderful. That's 2 points on my driving license and 138.00. The city is broke that's why they have a quoted to meet.

To much drama

Another year

I'm going to visit my mother's grave tomorrow. It's call Ching Ming paying respect to the dead once a year. It's another year you have been gone. I wish you were here. :( It's going to be a long drive for me tomorrow. I wish I could visit her more often I haven't gotten the chance. I'm going have to make time to visit her more this year. To much to do tomorrow.

Running part 3

I decide to go running with my brother today again. But it's kind of drizzling outside while I was driving. I called him and told him I'm not going to run in the rain. He said we start next week again. It was a long day at work today. I had so much to do. I thought the day wouldn't end. The people I work with are so lazy. They sit there and play with their phone. While they should be doing the work. She try to pass her work to me again. I told her off today everyone heard me. Lazy people always get away with things. I think if I did I wouldn't be able to get away with it.

I'm very tempted to call you and see how are you. Should I? If I do am I a fool if I do.

Running and walking part2

I was running late today meeting my brother and his friends. I went running and walking with them. It feels like I did ten miles when I only did 2 miles. My ankles are killing me. I haven't really walk since I started driving. You get lazy when you have a car. I did 2 days in a row running and walking. Will I be able to make it tomorrow. I told my brother I let him know. My brother told me today he's going to get me a bike. So we could go bike riding near Cesar Bay. He knows the bike I have sucks. It's sitting in the garage collecting dust. I bought the piece of crap couple years ago. I hope the weather gets warmer soon. I'm done with winter already.

Running

I just got back running with my brother tonight. I can't do it. It was really hard I couldn't catch my breath. I gotta to try stop smoking but its hard to stop. To stress out. I think I'm going to get a bike or rollerblades. I do have a bike in my dad house gotta 3 years ago. It's not a good bike the seat is horrible to sit on. No wonder it was from target. I was thinking about getting back into rollerblading. . I busted my ass to many times to forget. Don't know if my ankles will be able to take it. My brother said I should stick with a bike. Hmm can't decide. 

4/2
My brother text me he's going to get me a bike yeah!

My dad dislike my husband

My dad was complaining about my husband yesterday he really dislike him. He was complaining about he no good. Dads out there never like your boyfriends or husband. I was annoyed he been complaining since I was dating him. I never hear the end of it.